I used to watch "Entertainment Tonight" and read "Star" magazine. When I was a teenager, I was obsessed by stars. I gave that up when I went to college and didn't have a tv for awhile. That broke my habit, and I never followed Hollywood as much as I did back then. Now, especially, I have a different perspective. After Sept. 11, the posturing of those video gangstas and divas seemed childish and stupid. When there's so much grief in every living day, why do we look to them for guidance? We should look inward--to our families, or to our friends--and most of all, we need to look inward on ourselves.